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The holidays can make everyone a bit stressed and cranky. I'm Manic Depressive and cannot stand large crowds, even if they are my own family! I'm a quiet introspective person by nature, but sometimes I go BOOM! and Mr. Hyde emerges, with a manic syndrome to boot, and proceeds to insult everyone and drain Doctor Jeckyll's bank account. Usually I get obsessed with certain things during mood episodes. This time I'm able to self reflect, which is important in keeping one's sanity in check! I'm avoiding my loud, politically charged family this year, and just chilling with my animals. I don't want to go over to my grandmother's house where we all meet and become even more paranoid and anxious, possibly triggering something worse.
Online shopping can be a hassle living with Bipolar disorder, you can easily overspend on stupid stuff, or end up in the hospital with legal troubles and depression. Right now I'm obsessing over my A. Hentzi and it's molting process, I know it won't flip over on command. I just have to wait it out. Settling down the mind when it feels as if you've drank Ten redbulls and downed a bottle of whiskey is a VERY difficult if not impossible thing to do. I'm trying to keep from buying a G. Pulchripes to soon, because I lack the proper enclosure. I'll hold off until January on that one. One certain member of my family once listened to me describe what It's like living with Manic Depression and they actually went to the doctors faking symptoms and begging to get diagnosed!!! I'd trade this for a drug addiction! I've had one and kicked it to the curb! With this I'm stuck with it. This family member is the main reason I'm avoiding everyone this year. I tend to get delusional and aggressive when I'm around them and in a mood episode. That is not me normally.
I'll just sit back at home, sip some eggnog spiked with a little klonopin and rum. lol Are any of you like this? Not necessarily Bipolar, but can't stand being around to many people during the holidays or generally? Taking care of my Spider, and my deep interest creepy crawlies, is a form of self medication for me. If I didn't have that I wouldn't be able to function much at all.
Online shopping can be a hassle living with Bipolar disorder, you can easily overspend on stupid stuff, or end up in the hospital with legal troubles and depression. Right now I'm obsessing over my A. Hentzi and it's molting process, I know it won't flip over on command. I just have to wait it out. Settling down the mind when it feels as if you've drank Ten redbulls and downed a bottle of whiskey is a VERY difficult if not impossible thing to do. I'm trying to keep from buying a G. Pulchripes to soon, because I lack the proper enclosure. I'll hold off until January on that one. One certain member of my family once listened to me describe what It's like living with Manic Depression and they actually went to the doctors faking symptoms and begging to get diagnosed!!! I'd trade this for a drug addiction! I've had one and kicked it to the curb! With this I'm stuck with it. This family member is the main reason I'm avoiding everyone this year. I tend to get delusional and aggressive when I'm around them and in a mood episode. That is not me normally.
I'll just sit back at home, sip some eggnog spiked with a little klonopin and rum. lol Are any of you like this? Not necessarily Bipolar, but can't stand being around to many people during the holidays or generally? Taking care of my Spider, and my deep interest creepy crawlies, is a form of self medication for me. If I didn't have that I wouldn't be able to function much at all.